Wednesday, April 29, 2009

I'm feeling discouraged today and can't tell if it has anything to do with the adoption or not. Sometimes I get this deep awareness of how dark the world is, and when this happens, it really affects my spirit. I have been unpleasantly surprised lately by how commonplace cruel teasing is amongst kids. When I ask the kids I work with how they've been teased lately, the overwhelming response has been that they've been told to "Go kill yourself." I have no idea how or why telling someone to kill themselves has gained popularity, but it is so awful that I just can't fathom how there are so many kids willing to say it to other kids. And most of the kids I work with are the last kids in the world who need to be told that. I was walking in the hallway with a student today at a local high school when another student called the student I was with a very inappropriate and derogatory name, right in front of me- the adult! I just feel sad about it all. And some days it makes me inspired to try to help the situation, and some days it just makes me sad. Today it makes me sad.

What does this have to do with our adoption? Hopefully nothing. I was thinking about both Katya and Sara having to live in this world that can be so cruel, though. And it may be particularly hard for Katya, since she doesn't look 100% normal.

On a good note, I got my BCI and FBI fingerprints done at lunch. I also got my blood drawn for my STD tests. In the lab room, right next to another patient, the nurse loudly announced, "You have to sign this before we can run the HIV test." Talk about HIPPA violations; I thought that was amusing and was thankful the other patient didn't know me.

Anyways, I'm gonna go watch Lost. I've got 3 minutes to get downstairs.

1 comment:

  1. I came here from Little Loaves and Fishes. Like many on RR I am so glad Katya has a family and I have enjoyed reading your story here. I do pray that your paperwork comes together quickly. And I had to chuckle about the HIV test's lack of privacy. Like I told someone, as an adoptive mom I think I've been fingerprinted and checked for HIV more than a lot of people who are in jail!!